值得吗

值得吗？
其实不敢想
深怕想太多，冲动会被理性淹没
一旦往下坠，只会一直坠
沉没后可能再也找不回

讨厌 讨厌

讨厌空虚的数字
更讨厌看图说故事
讨厌爱表现
更讨厌躲起来
讨厌一个人
更讨厌一堆人
讨厌沉默
更讨厌说话
讨厌讨厌的
自己
累了
算了

First Oil Painting - The Sea

Woohoo! After 5 x 4 x 2 = 40 man-hour, spanned over 2 months, our first oil paint of "The Sea" (40 x 50cm) is finally completed today! Master piece & per session progression, documented evidence as above. Yeah!

Quarter Century

活过四分一个世纪，不得不觉得老了。四分一世纪，也没有什么成就，只是庆幸我还是我。
谢谢记得的，希望活过半世纪时，还是可以这样，你还是你，我还是我，我们还是我们。

礼物二号拍出来的礼物一号。

熊猫这辈子最遗憾的，就是拍不出彩色照片；而相机这辈子最遗憾的，就是不能自拍。

White Horse Princesses

3 of us went on our project "White Horse Princesses" on 15Oct, a sunny Saturday, at Horse Valley JB.

Woohoo! That's me riding Batman, the horse. We did the basic horse riding first. "Batman trot on..." and I went "up-down-up-down-up-down..." just doing that for 10min gave me muscles ache... at strange places like inner thighs and back of my arms.
Although none of us get to ride a white horse, we did see one. White horse off duty that day.
And behind us is the track where the horses gave us a walk. Nice quiet place.
深切的体会到“人善被人欺，马善被人骑”。根据导游说，Batman 以前是警马，但是太胆小了，警察不要它。众多马匹中，它最温驯，所以初级骑马训练都用它。其他的马是退休的赛马。这么老了还得工作。。。hmmm

Shy wrist rest

Piglet started work on Thursday...

On Friday morning, a curious person walked passed and spotted piglet, and stripped off piglet from its blanket!

Piglet is shy~

请叫我...

请叫我... 胆小鬼.

开不了口

也许不能完全明白那有多难

但因该还是会感到很骄傲
计划 策划 原来还得先说话
也许有一点遗憾
但遗憾所以更可贵
一切不是理所当然

凡事都有第一次

第一次被一只鸡感动

第一次打保龄球

第一次一天电召8辆的士

第一次看露天电影
第一次为梦境惭愧

第N次睡眼惺忪说GN

善忘

善忘也好，不想记得的快快忘了。

只是想记得的，需要用力的记得。

周末真好。周周抹掉疲惫，周周抹掉黑眼圈。

只是，又末了。

休息中

不要被“很努力”影响，这一个星期的我过得很好。实实在在的生活中，休息中，虽然很多食物不能吃。在最舒服的地方，穿最舒服的衣服，以最舒服的步调安排时间。也许太舒服了，一直想睡呢。
休息，为了走更长远的路。今天绵绵细雨下不停，但是我很开心。没有什么原因，也不需要理由。

很努力

人很妙。
因为有目标而努力，希望努力了就会怎样。
却也因为没目标而继续努力，因为除了继续努力，也不知道还能怎样。
怎样呢？
每天都忙着努力，努力的让自己看起来很忙，忙得让自己相信已经很努力。
好了，努力了！目标，怎样了？

Wisdom Tooth Extraction (Again)

3 years after my right wisdom tooth extraction, I had the left one removed yesterday! Chickened out back then and cancelled the 2nd removal, partly because it has not emerge and wasn't giving me any problem. But sometimes in March, I started to feel it, certain point in time I even had a hard time eating as I tend to bite my gum. Yes, March till August is a long time, that's because I need to schedule it such that the 5days MC doesn't affect my work.

Must say this time is much better, I was better prepared in the sense I knew what to expect, and also completed my crave-list way before the extraction (no wonder my colleague said I put on weight). The dentist was also better, more experienced, gentle, fast and also comforting. Procedure is the same as previous time, with my eyes covered, the dentist constantly iterate what was she doing and what to expect.
"I am going to put some instrument into your mouth now to loosen the tooth, you will feel pressure and water. Pressure... water... pressure... doing very well... ok the tooth is out now... are you feeling ok?"

The wound did not bleed as much too, almost stopped when I reached home, and I didn't have to use any of the extra gauze to bite on. Less facial swelling (until now), though it is still a little painful.

Did I say my tooth came out in one BIG piece once again? Still pretty fresh!

The previous tooth can be found in an older post. 不愧两只都是我的牙齿，长得还挺像的。Haha!

http://pohjiayee.blogspot.com/2008/08/wisdom-tooth-extraction.html

10,000 Year Clock

Saw this super cool article on 10,000 year clock. A clock about 200 feet tall that is built to tick for 10,000 year in mountain in west Texas.

Casually told my parents about this and browsed through some commentaries posted by readers, some thought it was wu liao.

The concept of time and sophisticated technology of clock has always intrigue me, let alone technology put into mechanism built to outlive civilization. This project is wonderful, idealistic it may be. Perhaps I watch too much sci-fic that imagine people discovering civilisation from past/future. But great project almost always requires some crazy persistent visionaries to realise. Just like 10,000 years ago, who would have thought there would be The Great Wall, The Pyramids, aeroplanes, space travel, mobile phone, or ridiculous idea of cyber space.

Read more from these websites:
http://www.10000yearclock.net/learnmore.html
http://www.kk.org/thetechnium/archives/2011/06/the_clock_in_th.php

那把火

今天和朋友聊天，聊到了“那把火”。我们聊的是老师对教育的那把火。其实那把火也是每个人对梦想，对工作的热诚。我想，每个人心中都有一把火，只是火势的大小不同，是否能持续的燃烧，是否能控制那把火。
看到在求职的朋友，好像两年前在求职的自己，一样的包着希望与期待，又持着迷惘与不安。一直都羡慕有明确目标的人，即使最后没有达到目的地，即使那把火在现实的环境下得要收在心底的最深处，可是他们知道自己已经努力过。梦想与现实的战争延续了千百年依然如是，好像永远都无法和平的共同进退。也不是没有，只是不是每个人都可以把梦想当饭吃。
有人跟我说过，喜欢的，不一定做得好；做得好的，不一定喜欢；会做的，不代表只会做的；没做过，也不一定不会做。
当事与愿违的时候，就会问自己，到底要为工作燃烧多少的自己？工作真的只是工作吗？毕竟一个人的一生有1/3的时间都是在工作。关键应该还是以正面的心态控制那把火，火不需要太大，但是要能持久，燃烧的方向要正确，不要把自己给烧坏了。

心想事成

每个人都希望心想事成, 希望地球按照自己的方式运转. 还好, 地球够坚定, 也不偏心, 从来不为了谁改变. 可是人呢? 可以吗?

美妙生活

这星期真的忙。忙到没时间睡觉，没时间吃饭，没时间知道在忙什么。真的老了，不像以前可以轻松熬夜至天明。家的温暖，和冷冰冰的四方格形成强烈对比。体谅，鼓励，感动了。难得周末，一起吃早餐，再一个人逛最熟悉的地方添置生活日用品，才觉得还真正的活着，过着最熟悉的生活。

孙悟空

电视又播新的西游记。看过无数次的西游记，再拍还是再看。
喜欢孙悟空。
喜欢他的性格。真。
喜欢他率直又真诚，不阿谀奉承，不刻意讨好。
愿像孙悟空以自己的方式生活。

Busy

Feeling busy now. Buu-get is not fun.
And to make busi-ness more "interesting", upsize it!

Fly

有人说... take it and fly off.
可是我从来都没说过我要飞... 我只要一步一脚印...
... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

Stranger Tides

I am on Stranger Tides...

... so I just have to Keep Swimming... just Keep Swimming...

(Thanks...)

侵蚀-ing

白天侵蚀着夜晚
现实侵蚀着理想
人群侵蚀着自我
怀疑侵蚀着信心

Foreign

Diarrhea, vomit, cold sweat, and giddiness, the same old package... but this time in a foreign place, alone in a room. Not the best experience to have.
It's good to be home. Again.

收拾

今天花了蛮长的时间收拾行李，因为出差的行李，不像自己旅行的行李可以那么随心所欲。
大大的行李摆在房里，顿时觉得房间真的很乱，就又收拾起那一袋袋从公司搬回来的杂物。
今天，真的 reset 了。一直觉得自己还没有真正放下那个维持了两年的身份，直到今天，把一切打包，and put away。不是很喜欢那种好像把一段过去埋葬的感觉。可是心里又清楚地知道，没有放下，握满的手就拿不起新的事物。也许这就是所谓的里程碑，在一段路的终点立一个碑，逗号也好，句号也罢，下一段路不会一样。
“埋葬”，太悲观了，所以把标题改成了“收拾”。“收”好了，我想我可以开始“拾”了。
对于打扫房子，一直都有很复杂的感觉。可想我房间的状态。。。

Lost

Lost in something?
Lost in nothing?
Ahead, something.
In here, nothing.
Lost in, nothing.

7 May 2011

The day that made itself into Singapore's history book in Politics, is also the day for Jolin's Myself World Tour concert in Singapore, @ Indoor Stadium.

She's amazing, dancing about 80% of the time without panting or sign of tiredness.

她是美的咯!

Got below 2 pic from xin.sg.

This guy is a Voguing master... his limbs are hyper flexible

水样人儿

Read this today, think I have a lot to learn on this.

孙子兵法
虚实第六篇
“夫兵形象水，水之形，避高而趋下；兵之形，避实而击虚。水因地而制流，兵因敌而制胜。故兵无常势，水无常形，能因敌变化而取胜者，谓之神。”

做人要像水一样，能屈能伸：既要尽力适应环境，也要努力改变环境，实现自我。我们因该多有一点韧性，能够在必要的时候弯一弯，转一转。太坚硬的东西，容易折断。而更多有一些柔韧的弹性的人，才可以克服更多的困难，战胜更多的挫败。

满江红

This is for certain someone who thought that 岳飞 only wrote 古墓遗书.
岳飞 was actually a very good poet. Here's famous 满江红.

词：岳飞

怒发冲冠，凭栏处、潇潇雨歇。
抬望眼，仰天长啸，壮怀激烈。
三十功名尘与土，八千里路云和月。
莫等闲、白了少年头，空悲切。

靖康耻，犹未雪；
臣子恨、何时灭?
驾长车、踏破贺兰山缺。
壮士饥餐胡虏肉，笑谈渴饮匈奴血。
待从头、收拾旧山河，朝天阙。

First heard this song way back 10 over years ago, no idea who is the original singer. There are multiple version on youtube... here's one of it.

预

《中庸》上说：“凡事有预谋就会成功，没有预先策划就会失败。说话预先想定就不会语塞中断，做事预先想定就不会感到困难。行动之前预先想定就不会内心不定。执行规则预先想定就不会陷入绝境。”

给我多一点时间，想定。

想自由

作自己

作自己,有多简单?
把心语化作话语,有多简单?
表情的素颜,有多简单?
吞噬自己,有多简单?
作自己,有多好?

脆弱

生命可以很脆弱
一切也许急转即逝
一分钟
声音渐灭
视线渐朦
十分钟
一切又重回轨道
一切好似不曾发生
恐惧却真实的可怕
原来可以很脆弱

晚安

诚实

对自己诚实，还是残忍了？
有时诚实也许不是最好的。但是，错了吗？
再一次，也许还一样。

人算

人算不如天算，天算不如不算。
很多时候，根本身不由己。
未来，未知。
预知，只能放下。
平静，只是可惜了。

The Production

Just finished a block buster "show of the year". The most 夸张 in history and 下重本, from scene setting, to visual editor, to emcees, to marketing. Very lame, but what to do? Anyone who screwup the show will die nicely. So thank god everything went well.

Next up, another challenge that have to be taken on due to a mistake.

Keep Walking

Fell (again) on Sunday. Was walking at my normal 7km/h, then slipped and fell along the road back home.
Was very malu cos there was this big group of people walking in front, probably heard sound from behind and kept turning back to check out. But I quickly present the Johnnie Walker spirit, Keep Walking! Stand up, keep walking, pretend nothing has happened, and nobody sees me. No time to even check out the wound... ouch~
Through this fell, I conclude I am a fair person, last year injured left knee, so this time is right knee's turn.

Oh, papa mama so funny de. Papa asked "你有没有擦药?". Me,"擦黄药水了". Papa,"要不要买红药水？还是蓝药水比较好". Me,"擦黄药水，再擦蓝药水，青出于蓝，青药水有比较好meh?". Mama,"Ya ya!青的比较好" ... lame

红楼梦 - 最终回

历经七个半月，从2010年七月一日至今，终于完成120回，1605页，红楼梦最终回。
更严格来说，可以说是七年又八个半月，模糊记得那时2003年12月假期的功课。

最后：
说到辛酸处，荒唐愈可悲。
由来同一梦，休笑世人痴！

Nice

Nice one by Pink

选择

有选择是好的，虽然作决定的过程非常伤脑筋，思考是伤神的。有时，被迫思考让自己更清楚自己的方向。
决定了，就不后悔。

Nostalgic

Once a year, CNY gathering with JC classmates. There's this nostalgic feel to the gathering. Maybe because that's the only time alot of 成语 will appear, and familiar names like 宝玉黛玉，傻仔超，儿子的大玩偶，人血馒头 are heard.
Many years to come...

Another step closer to Einstein

I assume not supposed to pluck hair during CNY, extrapolating from the "old people say" CNY 1st day cannot wash hair.
So I did a check for grey hair (note that actual colour appears more white than grey) today. Although it is not the first time I have seen them, but still sad to see so many of them appearing at the same time.
I also found more on my left hemisphere compared to right hemisphere, although this is by no way accurate as they can be there, but I did not see it, or the angle of lighting, but assuming everything is random, and probability of finding them increase with increase in actual number, and also assuming that brain activity is directly related to the number of grey hair, then I conclude I use the left hemisphere of my brain more than my right brain. Which I think is a very reasonable deduction, as left brain usually governs logical thinking while right brain governs creativity & arts.
Ok, I continue to convince myself that I am another step closer to Einstein.

大扫除

每次大扫除感觉都很妙。发现有很多事原来已经过了那么久。 发现原来去过了某个地方，写了某一句话，拍了某张照片。。。
发现了，然后取舍，该留的，该丢的。然后再发现，原来一些当下重要的，过了一阵子就不那么重要了。还有另一些，会好好收藏。

ysoul

A lousy day... a day filled with stupidity.
比萨斜塔闻名世界，但是如果坚持做斜塔中正立的砖块，只会格格不入。
Y soul?

难道谁又比谁高贵些

寄人篱下，忍辱负重。
骨气值多少钱？虚伪微笑值多少？

晴雯说得好，“一样屋里的人，难道谁又比谁高贵些”。

November - IT

One reason for not posting anything for a while is because November 2010 had been an IT-month. Got my complicated new phone, and then new laptop.

原来 juggling both 新欢&旧爱 is not an easy task. 新欢 is much faster to use, but 旧爱 share all my fond memories. Not to mention I have another 新宠! Toggling between the 3 of them now. Haha!

新欢

旧爱

Overdue Strawberry Attack

Opps... got ppl customer complaint liao! Overdue pictures from Cameron Highlands. Here is it, a tiny fraction of the pictures which JYs took.

View from outside our hotel @ Brinchang Town.

Typical winding road of CH, hardly find straight or flat road. The drivers there are 很厉害!

At about 5000ft, tea plantation in the morning. Still foggy (and cold~)

... and the fog got blown away, the sun appeared, and we took a pic.

At about 6600ft, we were above the cloud, no more fog 'cos the wind is so strong (and very very cold)

(Evidence of strong wind) Messy hair & cannot-open-eyes.

Mossy Forest at about 6000ft (still very cold). Paved trekking route, when the pavement came to an end, nobody wants to continue the trail. Paved, but still scary though, some parts of the wood are broken, one section got blocked by tree trunk.

Spongy & muddy mossy forest.

Alot of this plant there. Quite BIG somemore.

Lots of steamboat at CH, probably because it is cold, steamboat keeps you warm. This one is at the hotel we stayed.

Deep in thought. (In the end I had curry chicken noodle & mint coffee.)

Some places we visited. This was at BOH Tea factory.

Butterfly museum or something. I chose not to frighten myself in there this time. JYing went alone.

Bee farm. This one I went in. Somehow bees are less scary than butterflies.

And the STRAWBERRY ATTACKS!

Strawberry popcorn

Strawberry icecream


原来Strawberry grow on pillow!

Strawberry plucking at BIG RED STRAWBERRY FARM. (The driver was kind to give us direction for the farm, but I thought he said "Pig Lek" or "Big Lake" Strawberry Farm, JYing heard "Pek Lek", until I saw the advertisement along the road that says "Big Red".)

0.5kg of strawberry that we plucked. FYI, we had that for dinner.

Wild strawberry that the guide plucked for us. It took me alot of courage to eat that, doesn't look clean. And the thought that it is "wild" doesn't sound so safe.

Many shops like this that sell all sorts of strawberry merchandise.

JYing bought a strawberry earmuff.

Erm... Saw this at the hotel lobby. No durian I can understand, but how come mangosteen also cannot eat?!

That's all folks.