Bad. Very Bad

Battle Field -- Level 4 -- Stage 4 -- Bad. Very Bad.

This is the second last report for battle field series, a very disheartening one. I witness EEY AIJ HOP stumbled and fell, injured and bled, I see the broken hand and leg. I see how it tries to savior the situation till the very last second -- to no avail.

As predicted, the combined attack by "Kind & motherly-but-no-longer" and "He who think he is merciful" is formidable.

So much so for EEY AIJ HOP's stress and backache the night before the battle, the pain endured did not pay back. The once optimistic EEY AIJ HOP lost hope and faith once again. "No mankind is kind" -- it strongly believe.

Right now, EEY AIJ HOP just want to recuperate from the badly injured battle, in it's most familiar place, the place where it call home. The place where it knows it will be safe and peaceful. A place far away from battle field.

Till the next battle, it shall endure.

Shooting Star

just a random note... cos it thought this is special enough for me to put it down...

I "think" I saw a shooting star just now! while on the phone outside N1.3 BIE building. Maybe it is just me having 眼花 after all the horrible staring at notes. But, alot of things are up to the believer. I choose to believe it is not yan-hua, is a REAL shooting star.

And RJgg also say it is quite common to see shooting stars. AND there's a group of meteorites right now. (saw it on yahoo news, but forgot details le) supposedly one can see bout 30-45 swiping across the sky in an hour... provided good weather and right location of cos. So there is a strong reason, both scientifically and psychologically, for me to believe that I am not that old and blurry-eyes,... yet.

consider myself lucky, cos the weather was infact quite foggy and cloudy, even after the heavy rain. abit scary to stay in there at this late night all alone (ok, there's two other girls whom i dunnoe outside mugging. but in the comp lab... i m all alone.)

right now... i ve to get back to mugging for CRE, the final internal battle. after that will be the last external battle (if u know what i mean). nvm... time for me to get back mugging. maybe i ll sleep "early" later. Nitez!

Battle Field - Unpredictables. Misinterpret. Shivers.

Battle Field -- Level 4 -- Stage 3 -- A Battle of the Unpredictables and Shivers

Third battle of the series. All the way from yesterday, EEY AIJ HOP had been browsing through the martial manuals in a relax tempo. That's because today was an open-everything battle... bring in one tonne of papers and book if you wish to. And so, nothing to memorise about.

As for the opponent, is the all time scary Unpredictable-Prof. His strength is to STUNNED his opponent with Never-See-Before-Attacks. and so, there is nothing much EEY AIJ HOP can do, except to know all its own stuff and imagine all the possible scenarios. It even became a little paranoid trying to think of all the worst scenarios.

The battle place was cold-but-not-too-cold, and somehow, EEY AIJ HOP was nervous, the thought of an unfinished battle kept hovering on it's head. Then, it's hands start to shiver, while the body felt warm. trying very hard to juggle all the things around it with a pair of shivery hands. (*Shiver Shiver*)

Battle today was not as bad as it imagine. Unpredictable Prof did not give TOO Stunning-Attacks. (or maybe because "it" has already experienced the worst, so not as stunned as previous encounters) But all the attacks need endurance to defense. SOOO TEDIOUS argh! It had barely enough time to complete the battle.

But not everything was as smooth as you think. EEY AIJ HOP realised it misinterpreted an attack (after everything ended of course), and therefore wrong response was given... SOBZ SOBZ :(

Hmm... that was sad, because that is supposed to be a simple one. TOO BAD... Only itself to blame for being careless (for the Nth time, in donkey years) The one-eye-paste-stamp syndrome never seem to be cured... and I promise I hate AIJ HOP for that. I suppose the one-eye-paste-stamp illness is so complicated that no known cure are available for it to date. Till the syndrome disappear one day, I can only pray for EEY AIJ HOP that it doesnt recur again (or at least not so often).

Got Double Dose SHOCKED

Battle Field -- Level 4 -- Stage 2 -- Kena SHOCKED

Today EEY AIJ HOP had a second battle. Battle of the Environment and sinful human. "It" got quite freaked out before the battle cos there s so much martial arts manual to read and MEMORISE! and memorising is definitely not its forte. But fortunately, seem like "THE FORCE" did stayed with it for today. the opponent wasnt strong. so most ppl manage to defeat it with relative ease (at least compared to the previous Mr.Nice-but-no-longer and Mr.Evil-forever, and up coming evil monsters).

Anyway... that is not the main story of todays news report on The Battle Field. The side story is.... EEY AIJ HOP got double dose of SHOCKED. and as mentioned, this battle involves alot of memorising... shocking is definitely not good for memorising work. the story goes like this...

1st Dose -- Mild Dose:

Middle of the night, while it was memorising the thick stack of manuals... it's roomie started mumbling ALIEN language. I promise it is a non-terrestrial language. (must be extra terrestrial!!!).

it goes like this... &(@#&#)@^$&amp;^%*(;amp;@*#)!p;amp;*(@)))*#^#!!$^#Y#*$%($%#)(@(@&)!_!!(@))#$^$(%)<>?*^(^*()(*&^>

GRRR~~~~ Scared EEY AIJ HOP decided to be brave and stopped the roomie from continuing... using its highly intelligent IQ and random response ability, it spoke... "erm... u can off the lights if u want." Luckily... that REALLY stopped the alien language.
GRRR~~~ shock-ked~

2nd Dose -- Heavy Dose:

In the midst of final preparation for battle in the afternoon... it was all FOCUS trying to remember everything. The room was quiet.... and suddenly BANG!!!!! ARGHHH!!!!!

EEY AIJ HOP was SHOCK-KED again... this time much more shocked than the 1st time. Before it knows... the weird roomie started JUMPING UP & DOWN behind. SHOCK-KED + PUZZLED... it decide to ignore her.

Anyway, if u are curious what happened... she got herself her job for the holiday. So when she saw the email (i think), there comes the LOUD BANG, followed by ARGH!!!! (argh for quite long...) then "I GOT THE JOB!!!!" (and finally followed by "it" shocked face)



From past experimental results have tells us that knowledge has extremely low affinity for the brain. Any turbulent or change in surrounding conditions (temperature, pressure, pH, stress level, velocity etc etc...) will cause a irreversible detachment of these knowledge particles from the brain. So... It decided that... if it cannot win the Battle... it will be the roomie's fault. For the double dose shock has intrigue memory lost.

End note: Although I know that EEY AIJ HOP's roomie will be reading this, But as a PROFESSIONAL reporter for the Battle Field... Nothing Shall be Hidden, The Truth Shall be Uncovered, In the Name of Sun and Moon Shall Vow.

Midst of Battle

Battle Field -- Level 4 -- Stage 1

Minute-Peanut-Puny-Micro-Nano-Brain-EEY AIJ HOP had a battle today... and it* can still see the blood oozing from its wounds. The opponent today is combine force from the Mr. Nice-but-no-longer and Mr. Evil-forever. Not enough to make it die... but badly injured.

How disappointing.... Mr.Nice is no longer nice. That truly reflect my 嘉仪名言: 没有Prof是好人! No matter what... sooner of later... the nice one will be overtaken by the dark forces. before you know it, they ll be wearing all black and breathing like Darth Vader. (*Breath-in Breath-out*).

Picture from www.rabittooth.com

Anyway... me is real busy now... no time to get snip shots of battle into Wu Liao series. will only do that when i am free-er. after all the nightmare most probably.
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME~ (*pray pray*)

End note
* Because i dunnoe EEY AIJ HOP is a male or a female or something else... so i decided to call it "it" for the time being. hahha

You Lose

Today I was defeated. Yes, AGAIN.

I dunnoe why, but it is just so. The most irritating part? ... to realise the solution just after everything is over.

Somehow, this picture keep appearing in my head (for the past one year). So now I drawn it, The Wu Liao series (part 5): You Lose

For those who understood this picture, no need for more explanation. I dunnoe how many share the same feeling, but this definitely depicts myself.

Feel it

I FEEL IT once again.

When I feel it, it means the time has come.

"Backache + Neckache + Headache"

the traditional 3-in-1 package, with extra toppings of

"Heavy eyelids + High frequency yawning + High affinity to bed"

And, midnight special of

"Tooth ache" for special guest.

Rainy day

今天下了一场大雨。大得看不清前方，大得让人有一点害怕。
但是我喜欢雨天。当然，那是在我有安全庇护的前提下。

大大的雨点好像在为大地洗澡，用最原始的方式让恢恢蒙蒙的空气，大地，建筑，和人们，再次亮起来。经过一场洗礼，好像一切都苏醒了。

大雨让人看不清远方。这样的朦胧感觉自己特别有安全感，可以尽情地把情绪表露在脸上。
大雨声加上更大的雷声掩盖了人们的声音。感觉自己可以想说什么就说什么。不会有人听见吧？

有时候，感觉雨点是在为我哭泣。是他感受到我的心情吗？还是纯粹巧合？他的心情也不好吗？
还是，他只是让别人看不见我，听不见我，在他的掩护下，让我可以做回自己。仿佛生命最原始的一股力量在陪伴着我。那一刻，我不孤独。

(hmm... become abit sentimental whenever it rains. 虽然华文不是很好，但是，中文字还是最能表达我的心情。)

Speedy Recovery Evil Bro~

Argh~

Evil bro fell and injured himself just now! one big hole on the chin and 7 stitches now.
Although doctor said it ll leave scar, hope it wont be too bad. take care of the wound bro, if not very ugly ar!

Spastic evil bro called me after falling. Me at all the way other end of singapore lo~ the 遗憾 of 远水救不了近邻. and evil bro say he dun wanna see doc. -__-U. so deep a cut dun wanna see doc! roar~ how can he be so like me??? stubborn us both. we try to cure ourselves whenever something happens. 最好不要惊动爸爸妈妈. but stuff like this still have to la... aiyo~ in the end i called mama to bring him to see doc. hmpf~

take care la evil bro!!!

Yo!

Yo Yo Yo!

Evan Yo 蔡旻佑 (Cai Min You)... recently got really absorbed into his songs. that's why i decided to recommend his album here. He released his 1st album "19" last year, in October. Album titled "19" because he was 19 years old then (20 now... and he is only 4days younger than me).

Cos i haven been listening to radio for a long time, so sort of lost track with pop musics. all the way till CNY this year, saw a new year special programme, he was one of those performer, and suddenly thought that his songs are nice.

and i started listening to his entire album, it was very nice, from 1st track till the last. and is the kind that i ll like more as i listen to it more.

even more impressed after reading some biblio about him!

he started learning classical music at age of 5. he knows how to play violin (major), piano (minor), guitar, drum, and flute (envy envy~). he got into his university being 1st in violin and piano in the entrance exam. (double champion lo~~). his mum being a vocal teacher, taught him singing since young. more amazing, he composed all the 12 tracks in his album. he was producer for some of it also. (so talented~~)

you might think, how was he discovered. well, taiwan's local king Jacky Wu Zong Xian, found him when he was 14 years old. he sign contract with wu zong xian and waited for 5 yrs before releasing his ablum (long long wait). right now, he is SonyBMG 's 强打新人. in good hands i supposed, cos Sony bmg really knows how to publicise, promote and package new artists. letting the public knows him is definitely important for a 新人. no matter how talented, if nobody knows him, there ll be no success in the music industry.

He came to singapore to promote his album now (from tues till today), couldnt go and listen to him live because i am stucked in school. but ppl... look out for him. i believe he ll make it. he ll become famous lo... already a 新人王 in taiwan, he ll make his way to rest of asia.

Those who wanna listen to his album can visit these sites:

一听音乐网 - http://www.1ting.com/album/92/album_9255.html

久久音乐网 - http://www.99music.net/album/12197.htm

搜狗 - www.sogou.com and type in 蔡旻佑

typical love songs (very KTV style): 城外，我可以，我想要说，旋转门

his special style of rock and sci-fic: 梦不落帝国，超人不在家，8Bits，Can You Hear Me

轻快的: 翻不完的夏天，简单

Personally, i really ENVY of ppl who are talented. somehow, my parents did not let me learn anything when i am young. i really knows nothing. no talent at all!!! when i complained to them, they said that it was for my own good (not give me pressure and let me enjoy my childhood). they assume that i couldnt take care of myself, let alone learn stuff. moreover, learning music is very expensive (i din specify i wanna learn music lo). hmpf, not to the extend of pressurising, but exposure and let me learn something i like. really nothing. that s why often, i felt a sense of inferior when i see my peers who are sooo multi-talent.

Children are just like a piece of BIG BIG sponge. They can absorb alot, and learn alot. We shouldnt let this golden learning period be wasted. I always believe that exposing children to the world, and let them explore their interest. What learnt shall stay, no robber or theft can steal it away.

So accurate test

Saw this on TK's blog, it is a super simple test, just choose the colour you like. and amazing... it is so accurate, at least for this moment.

Colorgenic (http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/)

At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.You seem to lack the energy of late to get up and go. Your objectives appear to be unattainable and no one seems to care. You feel lost, neglected and need some W.T.C. (Warm tender care).You are not an argumentative sort of person and 'rather than fight - you'd switch' (an old cigarette ad cliche). But when you try to assert yourself - as sometimes you may try to do - you meet with so much resistance and effrontery that manifests itself so obviously that you become hurt, indignant and resentful. So in order to have peace and quiet you tend to become inhibited. You keep it all to yourself but deep down, you 'feel' and 'hurt' a lot.For some time now your hopes and expectations have been denied and because of this you are becoming withdrawn and introverted. Continual disappointment has manifested itself in you becoming both suspicious and restrained you have become withdrawn from others and have receded more and more into yourself. You seem to have lost your innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that you may be carried away by it only to find that you are wasting your time. You are loath to trust people, as in the past your trust has been misplaced. You seem to be keeping yourself cautiously aloof from others. At this moment in time your attitude is to trust nobody - until they can prove themselves to you.Since in the recent past all of your hopes and aspirations have been denied you, you are now convinced that the future will hold nothing but anxiety so therefore 'why bother?' You would love to get away from it all, to escape from the trials and tribulations of this mundane existence and fall into a peaceful and harmonious relationship, which will protect you from the lack of appreciation and give you the chance to start afresh.

If you know... my msn nick says "no mankind is kind". what a strong reflection of that. and i am seriously tired.

Getting slim

This is a real hectic week... so hectic, i m lost at what to do.

Anyway, on the way back to hall, was chatting with suppie and decided to put my nonsense idea into another The Wu Liao series. here is it.

Today~ Tired~ Tech Comm~

Today is a real roller coaster day... this is how it goes...

i begin waking up really sleepy. sooo sleepy and drowsy. and i can feel my 1kg eyelids putting extreme pressure on me. and e weight just get heavier. BUT! i cannot continue sleeping, cos today, we need to present our tech comm project (or not i dunnoe).

and so i crawl out of my bed, and back in, and out again, and in again, and out finally.
After all the struggle... finally i left my room for sch, and i thought i am late for lesson. and i took sbs bus instead of sch shuttle bus.

the struggle with e heavy eye lids just continue. to my surprise, i saw my comrades, SZ and ZR are also busy battling wth their eyelids. finally the lesson are over...

the break is another fierce fight, between mass tut and presentation rehearsal and blurness and time. luckily, TK, L & his gf settled the mass tut.

With three pairs of heavy eye lids, one blocked nose, one charcoal-burnt skin, one painful blister on the foot and many uncertainties, 6 "black-warriors" set for the final battle.

We did well i guess, given all the blurness we are in today. unprepared and worried. lost and nervous, roary in side and trembling outside.

At least all are over now. i just feel like taking a nap. and if u have realise by now, i dunnoe what i am typing. "let the finger do the walking", maybe that s what i m doing.

1...2...3... zzz... ZZZ...

Kai1 Bu4 Liao2 Kou3

有些话，就是开不了口。

当面问吗？但是两人之间的和谐很有可能永远的被破坏。

继续猜疑吗？但是天天见面的猜疑真得很难受。

不因为什么，只因为信任不存在了。

一切单纯的事情，都被蒙上一层阴影。

不喜欢带着有色眼镜看人，但是当你没办法再像从前那样单纯的相信时。

一切都不一样了。

事实到底是什么？我想，我永远都不会懂。

没有人会说。没有人肯开口。没有人会自己搓破自己的谎言。

而我，也不想说。

就只能熬到底吧。然后不见面。那就是最好的。

让自己慢慢淡忘一切。希望有一天我能忘记那层灰蒙。

再以平常心看待。

但那会是很久以后。

现在，我没办法。除非，有人打破沉默。

但是那人，一定不是我。

懦弱也罢。猜疑也罢。一定不是我。

时间真的能摸去历史的残影吗？

真的能忘记？还是原谅？

还是。。。陌路人的一切，都不干我的事？